New Boyfriend

-sigh- I have been wanting to get this off of my chest...even though barely anyone would read this, Im just gonna get it off of my chest even if it's personal. So, I've been dating my very first love for like, 2 years and it has been my longest relationship...but things changed alot. I mean, he is just a...weird person, cause I barely got any good attention outta him, he often had to travel on a business trips and he was barely here for me. Now, I know he is hardworking and wants to have more money, but I kept having a lack of attention. Im not an attention whore, but we had serious plans to move out on anothet town to live together and work and all, but things...did not go as planned. He wanted us to live with his grandparents, but I don't, I don't mind them being with us but I just wanted us to live in the big city and it cannot happen since the job he has now...well..won't help him buy an apartment. As well as he's quiet uncaring for me...he doesn't wanna wake me up for work, barely asks me if I need help or if Im in a need of anything...and it's like, he doesn't care if I come to the village in the city he wants to be at....and so...long story short, I cheated on him. I never had any bad intentions towards him but my feelings started fading more and more, like he kept giving me reasons to break up with him, which I'll do in 2 days. Yes, it will be hard...yes it will be just a memory...I am kinda depressed about this, but I often felt like he never truly loved me...so...when the day comes...I may break his heart but...its for our own good. So yeah...I dated two guys at once...while in a relationship and I chose to be with the second one. This guy I will soon be in a relationship with...just makes me waaay happier...I guess everyone has had a first love... that they think it will be the only one..but it just doesn't work sometimes...